- to bed: 6am
- wake: 10am, curse internal alarm
- tell roomies of 1) irrational (yet somewhat conditioned) fear that casual long-term goodbye = death, totally unrelatedly, for person I bid casual long-term goodbye, then 2) resulting irrational guilt/anxiety
- realize must bid proper goodbye and 'put all right' with conscience; no cursing of conscience
- we ponder internal mechanisms, particularly when unconsciously we force behaviors that feel un-natural
- threaten to lock KR in JS's closet
- plan ski weekend
- make tea, more tea [moretea, mortea, morte - back to that again]
- blog
Update, 1:32pm:
[JS and I sit in the livingroom. She is fasting. I am unable to nap. The sky is gray; the room is bathed in a greenish light.]
DM: "Uh. I should shower."
JS: "Why?"
2 comments:
Now, are you talking literal death-death, or emotional "I died a little inside when I said good-bye to her" death?
You shouldn't worry about the former. The latter: maybe-possible-probable!
I meant the latter, but now it occurs to me it would be much more entertaining if only the former...perhaps even sitcom-y, "The Morte and Mindy Show."
They'd use words like: grim, soul, and REAP. (Still having fun with the Handbanana thing.)
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